I have come to the conclusion after some long time of consideration that I will no longer fill the role of a Parental Advocate anymore. It has been a long 7-8 years work on this blog. I dedicated my life to it, just to make sure other parents who find them selves where I was so many years ago, would have a place to turn where they could get all the information they were going to need for the fight of their lives. I researched and I studied and I applied my own personal experience. And I have tried to help as many who asked for my help. But, now it has come to a time when the toll it has taken upon me and my life has become too much for me to bare.
For all these years I thought that the one person, who had my back in this and who understood my desperation in getting all the information I could out there for other parents, was not fully backing me. Well he was too my face but behind my back he was trashing me about it. He would say things like, “All she cares about is that fucking blog!” or things like “She is working on that stupid fucking blog again!” The whole time offering up nothing but praise and showing pride in the things that I was accomplishing, to my face. What he failed to mention to people when he talked shit about this blog, is what the blog actually was about. He conveniently left that part out. And when it was brought to my attention by a quite a few people about what he was saying, they were floored when they found out which blog it was, and they were even shocked that he would say such a thing,
Well this is the final blow that I believe that I can take. After 16 years of sucking the life out of me and everyone of the dreams I had, this is the straw the broke the camels back. I sincerely apologize to everyone who this may affect. I just do not feel like I have anything left to give, to anyone, and not even myself.
So I think the time has come for me to walk away from Parental Advocacy. I will leave the blog in place for future reference for anyone who might need it but I will no longer be posting on it or updating any of the information on it. Again I am very sorry. I have done all that I can do.
And for any parent who is new to this fight for your life, hang in there do what your case plan tells you to do, and I mean all of it, when Child Protection says and how they say. That is the only way you will get your kids back. And to those who lost their kids due to drug related allegation, I am telling you this and I cannot stress it enough, if you want your kids back you have to quit the drugs. And do not even consider doing them again until your child is 18 years old because if you do you are opening the door for Child Protection Services to come right back into your life again. You cannot beat the system. So do not even bother to try because the only ones you will be hurting are your very own children.
Good luck to all and may God be with you. And thanks to all who came to this blog to get the information I wanted so much to share with you, Goodbye.
Jessica Lynn Hepner